♥ twenty thirteen
finally seventeen ey?
being seventeen is so tiring. with spm marching its way. with this messed up mind. with things happening.
all i wanna do this year is to do nothing that will affect my future and get my life fixed, by that i'll have to get straight A's first.
i have no idea how to do that, so i'll just go with the flow.
i dunno what to write cause i dont wanna expose too much to the world.
so i believe that's it.
chaloh xxx
♥ bollocks
oh hi. life is really boring these days, and i must say i cant wait for school to open bcs I always have a great school opening. hahahahaha YEAH RIGHT.
I miss you dude, so much. If my words offended you the other day. I am dreadfully sorry. You're not used to this shit, you're just not up to this. Its better to talk with two eyes rather than letting the words do the job. SO I am so sorry for saying sorry to much. Can you pls text/call or come pick me up or something bcs I really do miss you. I mean really, I've found no point in social networking when you're not around.
I'm sorry, I miss you, I love you.
♥ Chances
Love me for my imperfections. Love me for how I am. Because I love you for you. How you get me all nervous and that. When I feel like I just wanna tell you everything but I know I can't. When you start to tell me things and say "oh nono this has gone way to far" I want to go far. I want to know everything. Knowing "some things" makes me have a big urge to know more. Being with you just gets my head off things. You taught me to "go for anything" That in this one life we've to do everything. I want to have at least a week. Just you and me, we'd go anywhere cause I know you can. Its just me who's holding it back. But I know that I'm not that girl for you. I'm just too "kind, plain, no fun" So I don't know. We might have to just wait for that moment when everything seems to be right or when there is no other choice.
"Love is to love when you have no reason too."
♥ yeah.
okay, so here goes.
I'm done with guys. thats just it. Imma stop thinking about my happy ever after thing, life does not revolve that way. I'm done with guys treating my nice. No, I don't want anyone to pukul me or what. but yeah. you know. if you don't know pun takpa :p
I really don't have the time for all this shit. If you like me, you must tell me.
I'm tired of guessing, sometimes I think you like me but then idk it doesnt seems that way.
So today, I met pidot, he's no longer gorgeous anymore. He looks thin, he's lost weight.
Ahhh whatever. the point it. yes My heart did beat fast, I wanted to cry at first.
but then I realized. its time to move on man. and I actually have moved on.
So now, its just those guys who are idk.... They're goofing around, toying my feelings.
So now I'm done.
I'm done with you trying to hurt me.
yeah I won't deny that one day I might fall for you again,
but yeah. I'll cope with that later.
but I think its better of you not talking to me.
like what you're doing now.
Okay?
I've got better things to think about.
Like now, my finals are just around the corner...
And after my finals, I'll be getting back on my horse.
So fuck that lonely feeling, once I'm with my horse, I'll no longer be lonely lah :D
and yeah. I'll be spending time with my horses. then compete, then next year SPM.
so that'll be it. I don't think I have time for all this :)
Byebye :B
♥ dream, don't go away please!
so I fell i love with the dream I had last night.
I can barely remember half of it... butttttttttttt................
I remember one part.
For some reason which i could not remember eventho i tried real hard too, I cried in that dream. I was somewhere, like at a carnival a funfair, a concert or maybe at some horse competition.
As I said earlier i do not remember why I was crying.
And suddenly this figure came upon me, put his fingers right into mine. grabbed my hand, and kissed it.
AWWWWWWWWWWWH!
and then he chinned me up. hugged me, gave me a warm look and kissed my forehead.
then we walked together to someplace i do not remember where.
and one hand he was like genggam-ing my hand, the other over my shoulder and we walked. and he
just hugged me while we walked. he told me everything is gonna be alright. he'll be with me forever.
and then I don't remember :'( I can't even recall who the figure was.
Trust me, today I've been a little distracted by that dream. been trying to figure out who he was.
god, I want that dream to come true.
I want to replay the dream pleeeaseeeeeeeee.
:'(
♥ Sixteen finally.
My sweet sixteen day is about to end in a couple of minutes now. So let me make a quick preview bout how my day was *if you even care*
So yeah at 12AM I cried cuz hahah i dunno. I wanted to cry. because I felt unloved, felt like people don't love me. which is that they really don't anyway, then someone called. He cheered me up. HAHA he was the first one to wish lagipun. duuuuuuh. He wished me time maghrib lagi HAHAHA. yelah dia ikut jam Islam :p korang ade? takde en? and he was the first one ever to actually sing the birthday song to me :) Thank you so much!
Turns out that there's more to love then you could ever imagine. and theres plenty more people out there who loves me. yeay me! HAHA :D
So yeah I went to sleep with a smile, and I woke up with one too! And I kinda smiled all day long. I'm still smiling btw :)
I had a great day, walaupun takde keluar dgn sapa sangat. But I really had a sweet sixteen. Thanks to the people who really really made my birthday something special. Fadzli, Alkashah, Aidila, Amirul Shahrani, Hariz Amin, Fara Dayana. and to those who didn't remember my birthday? No, no hard feelings kept. Its my birthday, I don't wanna be sad.
but my birthday is ending.
So maybe lepas ni I'll be sulking :p hahahahah like you care if I sulk kan?
yeaah, so. Goodbye 16th September 2012. You will be remembered.
My birthday wish? What I wish for is just to be a better me, get back riding and maybe emm, be loved again. or maybe not.
Okay thats it. Again, thanks for making today special! xx
♥ ini tak lawak. lawaklaaaaa
WOI IZAD MEO! BAGI ORANG CAKAP BOLEH DAK?!! ESH -________-
AIDA KAT RUMAH LAAA. KEDAH!!!!
BUKAN KAT KUANTAN.
Izad ah. org explain dia tak faham pulak =_=
so yeah HAHAHAHAH sorry ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
rasa jahat beno menipu~
mama tak kasi ikut ah, sebab dia naik bas.
lagipun dia ckp nk pegi kursus then kursus tu habis hari Ahad. ahad kan Kedah sekolah so takleh ah. hmmm. sowiiii~
jgn marah eh :'(
