I can't do this anymore. I think I'm so damn cruel right now. I can change things. I'm the one that could make things work. But I don't want to. I want things to stay as they are right now. But then I still get that guilty feeling. It's complicated. Your waiting, thats why. maybe I should stop all this and let you win. But I don't want to, maybe I'll let go one day. MAYBE. Gimme time, I get so easy to hurt nowadays. I try inhaling, exhaling and let those tears go, but no those tears don't go. and I won't feel satisfied if I don't cry. I wanna cry. but then I cheer up for awhile, and I read a thing and I get sad back. I really have to get my mind off these things, but then this is the only thing I think of every second. I really need to put a stop of this. I need some respond please. tell me things please. maybe I need to know things that may hurt me. Just tell me, I need to know!